Anhedonia
Posted: 11 Jan 2018
Do you ever feel numb to music as if it doesn't do anything for you? The passion fades away and the sound waves amount to a bunch of noise instead of you being interested in the details. This happens to me after my "weekend" of music as I begin the next work week. I imagine this is normal to some extent and a sustained dopamine rush isn't realistic. Maybe I need a better diet to support more dopamine release but I know I'll be walking around at work tonight thinking about what I will do with my next musical adventure.
What happens if you wake up one day and all of the passion is gone to never return? What will you do with the rest of your time in this existence? Maybe you can sit there like an old lady in a retirement home doing a pointless puzzle. I don't mean any offense to you if you end up as an old lady doing a pointless puzzle but this would mean madness to some people in the creative arts. Can you find satisfaction and release in doing a pointless puzzle devoid of expression and emotion? Maybe people do puzzles for the illusion that they are creating or being productive. Same with other forms of media I guess. You watch sports to feed the primitive tribal desire, play video games to pretend you're a hero and watch movies to feel included in somebody else's story. My grandma plays solitaire and I think that is pretty pointless despite the release it seems to bring. Perhaps that is what we have to look forward to if we live long enough.
What happens if you wake up one day and all of the passion is gone to never return? What will you do with the rest of your time in this existence? Maybe you can sit there like an old lady in a retirement home doing a pointless puzzle. I don't mean any offense to you if you end up as an old lady doing a pointless puzzle but this would mean madness to some people in the creative arts. Can you find satisfaction and release in doing a pointless puzzle devoid of expression and emotion? Maybe people do puzzles for the illusion that they are creating or being productive. Same with other forms of media I guess. You watch sports to feed the primitive tribal desire, play video games to pretend you're a hero and watch movies to feel included in somebody else's story. My grandma plays solitaire and I think that is pretty pointless despite the release it seems to bring. Perhaps that is what we have to look forward to if we live long enough.